a lost passion

The other day I decided to do my hair, take two shots, have a dance party of one, and take some photos. I pulled everything out of the corner, swept it clean, blasted some Rolling Stones, and asked Conner to be my hype man for a bit.

A lot of these photos I actually took with a self-timer. I’m not sure why it came over me so suddenly. I think this is an itch that just hasn’t been scratched in awhile. I love fashion photography, or just portrait photography in general, but haven’t done a shoot in so long. And no models on hand with this lockdown.

Maybe I’m just bored as hell.

So I became my own model and had a great time doing it.

It was a creative release. Getting to see my vision come to life on both sides of the camera was exciting.

But beyond the creativity, it was just kind of fun to throw myself I photoshoot. This is why:

I have become way more comfortable in my skin in the last six months than in my entire life. I have ways to go. But I’m proud of how far I’ve come.

I have felt societal pressures starting to slip.

I have been putting my mental health and well-being at the forefront of my daily routine.

I have been living for my own opinion of myself, not others.

I have been giving less f-cks to things that aren’t as important to me. I still give some f-cks. But not as many.

I’m still young – but I feel like I’m falling into place as I should. My mind feels more aligned with my heart than it ever has. Mushy stuff.

I’ve always wanted balance and to me that meant peace and not bothering anyone. But that’s not balance. That’s incredibly tilted. Balance is feeling my whole spectrum of feelings.

Currently, I’m not doing that. But I feel like I’ve woken up and am ready to live vividly. Like in these photos.

So I came. I posed. I laughed. & it was hella fun.

I suggest you do the same and throw yourself a friggen photo shoot.

That’s all. xx

oh hey beautiful. thanks for reading my blog post! how was it? to get in contact find me on IG: katerosehayes or shoot me a message katerosehayes@gmail.com. I’d love to be in touch!

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